I’ve been an emotional yo-yo for a long time. My mood can swing from optimistic and ready to take on the world to “I suck at everything” in what seems like a flash.
It’s not much fun. (understatement of the post)
AWARENESS WITHOUT ACTION
By digging into what causes me trouble, I’ve realized that my nosedive into depressive states of mind follow times where I become acutely aware that my current actions don’t match my current ambitions.
In the past, I always relied on escapism in some form as my coping mechanism. Struggling with work? Go golf. Depressed with your financial situation? Try a shortcut by playing poker. Stressed out? Grab a chocolate milkshake or a bunch of beers.
But now I can’t fool myself into using these forms of escapism. I see through them. They no longer have the draw as the illusion has been torn down.
The only thing left to do is to sit down and address the underlying issues and that’s not nearly as fun as acting like I’m solving a problem by ignoring it.
But I need to keep pushing through my discomfort and addressing these issues. It’s the only way to keep moving in the direction I want to go.
I have big ambitions and my actions need to line up.
Sit down and do the work. That’s the path forward.